November 22, 2017 v4 p56
A couple of weeks ago I was feeling disconnected from my prayers because I was letting my scheduled get in the way. Last week I made sure to refocus my priorities and right on cue, things came to light.
It was a little over a year ago when I started telling God that I was ready to do His will in my prayers. It was a couple of days later that my manager at work let the warehouse know that he would be moving on within the company and that someone else would be taking his position as Supply Chain Manager. He had told me this a few months earlier, before it was public knowledge to the rest of my co-workers. He was able to do that because he could trust me not to let it out, and that he knew of my desire to move into management at my company. By no means did I think that his moving on would mean I would even be considered for that position, but I know that he told me ahead of time so that I could be prepared to lead my department through the transition. I do believe there was some connection between me telling God that I was ready to do his will and the timing of my manager’s announcement. I’m not exactly clear on what that connection is, but I know it’s there.
I’ve continued to include my desire to do His will in my prayers. There have been times when I thought that I knew exactly what that is. Usually I end up realizing that I may not be right, or that if I am right, the time may not be. It was about a month after my manager’s announcement that I let him know that I had an interest in the position that was opening up. I made it clear that I didn’t expect to get the position, but that I really wanted the experience of seeing what going through the process within my company looked like. That would be extremely valuable in my career. At just about the same time I had reconnected with an old family friend, and it was actually by accident. I realized that I must have clicked on the “send a request to all of your contacts” link on LinkedIn. We were already connected on other social media platforms, but this one led me to reach out more to him. It turns out that my friend is a C-level executive in Procurement/Supply Chain for a major world-wide manufacturer. This was the mentor my manager had asked me to seek out a couple of years ago.
Through that mentoring relationship I had started on a course of professional development that was geared more towards my work and a little less on leadership principles. This was an area I needed to grow. I had 20+ years of supply chain knowledge, all gained through work experience. I knew some of the terminology and the basic principles of supply chain leadership, but not a very deep understanding of how they operated or how to implement them at my company. I did some self-guided studying on a couple of different process improvement initiatives and actually read through the course materials for a professional certification program that my mentor consulted on. All of this gave me a completely different point of view on the entire supply chain process. It also showed me that some of the ideas I had going on in the back of my mind were exactly what I could see needed to happen at my job. The biggest questions I had now were; how do I begin to implement these changes, would the new manager come in and try to change the new things I was implementing, and how did I get over my lack of self-confidence to follow through with all of this.
As I was continuing to pray for guidance, I thought there were other areas I was being called to go towards at the same time as trying to get through this transition at work. The more I thought I was doing the right, other things, the more I was getting frustrated at work. Then we brought home the Chalice. As a family we had a strong week of prayers, then I went camping and fell away slightly. I was really eye-opening how much just one day of missed prayers would affect me. As I refocused my prayers the following week I went to one of my go to sources for guidance. One morning I had four different videos brought to my attention that all spoke to me about what I was going through. I came to the realization that I was trying to get guidance in too many different areas. It helped me realize that the one area I really wanted to focus on the most was the only one I needed to focus on right now. Once I have that area figured out it should be easier to begin to focus on the others, one at a time. That has allowed me to realize that my job is where He is calling me to excel.
In the past few days I have been able to think clearly about what needs to happen at work to get things in order. It has allowed me to be calmer when faced with people at work who aren’t yet on-board with what needs to happen to move my department forward. I have a clear vision of how things need to be handled. I have regained some of my self-confidence in my vision. When the warehouse was going through the management transition I was really excelling in my job. Things were starting to change and people were seeing things the way I had hoped. When the new manager came in, it allowed my self-doubt to creep in. Nothing anyone said at work reversed that. It was my prayers and my inward reflection that led me to that.
This wasn’t a case where my prayer for something broken to be fixed was answered by a physically evident result. This was a case of my prayer for guidance being answered by being shown how He has discerned this for me.